TAWARAN!

Hello peeps! nak kongsi cerita je sambil-sambil update blog yang dah seminggu lebih tak di update.

24 May hari tue saya dapat tawaran untuk kerja sambilan lagi di tempat saya kerja dulu at ILP Miri. Saya rasa hepi sangat. Haha! Tapi tue cuma tawaran la. My bos suruh saya send resume saya and I did it already. Tapi tak tau la apa keputusan dia. Dapat ke tak kena tunggu je la. Lagi pun saya sekarang ni tak buat apa-apa. Biasa la jadi TOKEYNEO ladang anggur. Haha! watever. Saya bukan apa tak nak cari keja tetap dulu sebab nak tunggu keputusan UPU saya samada dapat or tak. Kalau dapat i just go on with my it la. Further study. Kalau tak dapat pula, I just go with work life jak. Searching for a job. Kerja tetap and dah malas dah nak fikir sal futher study. Sebab tue cuma ingat nak kerja part time je. Haha! Biar la. Berserah kepada Tuhan je. He has a plan for me. Mana tau kan saya jadi millionaire. Haha! Angan-angan tue doe! watever ko la!

Ok la. Entah nak cerita apa lagi. Have a nice day peeps! See yah again. K bye!! wink wink**

Ended!

Hello peeps! How are you all? Me? My physical just fine.. but my mental maybe not. Orang cuma boleh tengok bertapa happynya saya hanya melalui luaran. But no one know what i feel actually. I dont know to who I want to share. It's too hard. Cuma di blog <> ini sahaja tempat luahan hati saya. Even menaip semua ni I'm crying sebab ingatkan hal dulu. After a relationship of almost 2 years. At the end, it didnt bring any outcome. Maybe its the right time for him untuk mulakan hidup baru dia. He just take 1 year to forget everything. Is it too easy to forget all that? And for me. I dont know how long i need to forget all this. It's not an easiest things. It's hard. I just want to say sorry for what I have did. Sebab saya hanyalah insan biasa yang buat kesilapan. I'm sorry for leaving you for 3 month before this. Bukan sengaja atau apa. But maybe you know or maybe you dont know why I did it. I know that you won't forgive me sampai bila-bila pun. Its ok. I deserve it.

this mug given by him. Still keep it. And from now on. I will put it in a box. All of your stuff except one things that you might think that I didnt like it. I still using it by the way. 

and your picture. I'm too stupid because still keep your picture in my lappy. I keep it because I just need to see your ugly + weird face that you ever did to me when I'm sulking and not in a good mood. After seeing it. It make me laugh and smile. :'(

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This lyrics of a song is the way to interpret my feelings.

Nikita Willy - Maafkan

Tlah Tiba Waktunya... Untukku menyatakan... 

Padamu sebenarnya, apa yang ku rasa... 

Maafkan hati ini yang tak bisa berhenti menyayangimu... 

Walau ku tak bisa menjadi milikmu 

Juga sebagai yang tercinta... Di hidupmu. 

Kekasih yang ku cinta 

Kekasih yang ku mau 

Ku tau saat ini... Kau masih ragu... 

Maafkan hati ini yang tak bisa berhenti menyayangimu... 

Walau ku tak bisa menjadi milikmu 

Juga sebagai yang tercinta... Di hidupmu..

Sungguh bukan maksudku... 

Untuk memaksamu menjadi milikku 

Yang slama ini sudah menemaniku 

Untuk sebagai yang tercinta... Di hatiku...

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some lyrics hoping to forget him from Geisha - Lumpuhkan Ingatkanku

Lumpuhkanlah ingatanku, hapuskan tentang dia

Hapuskan memoriku tentang dia

Hilangkanlah ingatanku jika itu tentang dia

Ku ingin ku lupakannya

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the last one is something that I hope. Jac - Jagalah Diri

Ya Tuhanku
Jagalah diri ini menempuh

Hidup sepi tabah menerima takdir

Ya Tuhanku

Ketemukanlah kami berdua nanti

Hingga itu ku mohon kau

Jagalah dirinya

Hingga itu ku mohon kau

Jagalah dirinya

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I hate to be alone actually. I hate it much because I will remember all of our memories. Sometimes saya berharap saya akan hilang ingatan. I hope to and I wish to because I want to forget the memories that we have built together. Its too hard to forget it. Tanpa dia tahu saya masih menyayangi dia. How stupid is me. It is all my fault sebab EGO. So to all peeps. Please throw away your egoist in yourself. I learn it much right now. Maybe this is me. Apa-apa masalah I just too hard nak share kat sesiapa pun even dengan "dia". Saya lebih banyak memendam masalah seorang diri. Sebab tue orang suka simpan rahsia kat me sebab I wont tell anybody. That's why I dont tell anyone also about my problem. Even to my family. I just keep it by myself. EGO! Rasanya ia semakin menjadi in myself because of this problem. I am so sorry. Take care ♥. So long. Goodbye.

OMG!!

Hello people, today I just want to share something about long life love story. Haha! Harap siapa-siapa yang tengok blog ni rajin baca la. Hehe!

Yesterday I just know about this! Haha! Saya tak ingat la bila saya dapat Facebook orang ni. This guy I know since I was in year 9 a.k.a form 3. He was the person I like actually. Tue cerita dulu la. Haha! Lama dah tak dengar cerita sal orang ni sebab after year 11 a.k.a form 5 semua orang menuju cita-cita masing-masing. Eiseh! Ayat main tue!! Haha! Cerita punya cerita, hidup dia pun dah berjaya juga tau. Hehe. Dia sekarang ni kerja sebagai pegawai ******* kot agaknya sebab saya tak tanya sangat. Hehe. Dulu dia bertugas kat ****** and now dia dipindahkan ke *****.  Baru je 2 hari dia melapor diri. Hehe.

And yesterday I just know that he likes me since year 9 at SMK Limbang. Haha! Oh my. It’s been a long time already. Dulu saya Cuma tau hal itu from my best friend tapi saya ingat cerita tue main-main je and I just ignore it. Sebab tak percaya la tue. Yala, siapa juga yang nak kan saya ni yang bersikap kebudak-budakan time SMK.  Haha! Tak sangka pula memang betul. He and I just keep it for 7 years already and he just tells me yesterday that he like me. Haha!

Dia pun bagitau saya yang dia perhatikan saya dari jauh je. Same goes to me! Haha! Tapi saya tak nak bagitahu dia la. Haha! Just keep it secret.  Lucu juga kalau nak ingat cerita zaman sekolah menengah ni. Haha! Form 3 kelas saya di atas and kelas dia kat bawah. Haha! Kalau nak di ingat hal dulu memang bodoh la kan. Biasa la pemikiran budak-budak belum matang. I just peeping him from stair. Haha! Senang-senang je tengok dia dari tangga sebab dia duduk di tepi tingkap. Haha! Gila kan. Tapi takpa la. Saya ikut best friend saya tue sebab dia tengok boifren dia and at the same time boifren dia same class with him. So, saya pun join sekali la tapi cover-cover sikit la. Buat malu je kalau tak cover. Haha!

Me and my best friend tue bukan nak tengok orang kat kelas bawah je at the same time tengok cikgu dah sampai atau belum. Kami ni kadang-kadang jadi informer bagitau kelas. Bila cikgu dah sampai cepat-cepat lari masuk kelas and bagitau kawan-kawan “Oi… cikgu datang dah eyh”. Haha! Terus buat innocent face dalam kelas. Haha! Jadi budak baik depan cikgu. Biasa la nak jaga imej kan. Lagi-lagi kelas depan. Haha! memang gila la time tue.

Best-best peeping people pernah juga terkantoi dengan Ustazah. Haha! amik kw!! Tak perasan yang ustazah datang, tiba-tiba dah kat belakang kita orang then cakap “Hah! ******, low. Apa kamu dua buat ni? Mengintai boifren ka?” Haha! Tersengih-sengih je kami dua. Ustazah ni tau sal kawan saya sorang ni yang dia ada boifren kat kelas bawah. Haha! Then ustazah ask me “Low ada boifren kat kelas bawah juga ke?” then saya jawab “Hehe. Takda la ustazah. Ikut ****** saja. Hehe.” Paling best ustazah ni. Sporting habis. Saya dah terbiasa dengan ustazah dari saya form 1 lagi sebab dia ni guru kelas time saya form 1.

Lain pula dah cerita saya ni. Haha! Back to story mula-mula tadi. I wonder why he likes me and I ask him. He says “sebab ko baik, tak banyak karenah, tengok sikap saya dari muka saya, pemarah sikit and so on.” Saya terfikir juga kadang-kadang muka saya ni innocent face ke sampai orang kata saya ni baik. Haha! Lucu juga. Saya nak juga jadi jahat bah! Haiya! Haha! Tapi people just judge me from outside. But for sure they will know that saya ni takda la baik macam yang mereka katakan tue. Haha! Saya jujur katakan yang saya ini not totally “BAIK”. Hehe. Baik bertempat la.

I just can say “Kita jadi kawan dulu la k.” and he ask me “sampai bila?” I answered him “sampai ntah.. haha!” I just can give answer like that coz bukan kita tau pun kan jodoh kita siapa and for me umur masih muda lagi. Enjoy dulu baru peningkan kepala sal kapel. Haha! He say “sampai bila-bila la tue kan. Sedihnya aku.” Then I just laugh and say to him “kenapa perlu sedih? Masih banyak lagi perempuan di dunia ni and mana tau jodoh ko orang *****. Hehe.” Last-last dia cuma terima saja la apa yang saya bagitau.

And yes we are only friend now. Dia cakap dia betul-betul and serius dengan apa dia cakap sebab dah lama dah dia suka kat saya. Saya pun tak sangka sungguh and pretended asking him since when he likes me. And jawapan dia “ingat lagi ko ka bila saya minta biodata ko?” haha! oh my. Kalau nak di ingatkan balik memang lucu pula zaman dulu. Biasalah handphone belum ada lagi dulu. Facebook pun tak popular mana pun dulu. Main minta biodata indah. Bengong juak.!! Nah amik kw! Haha! Paling lucu isi-isi biodata dulu la. Haha!!!! Lucu tahap segala gaban pun ada. Haha!

Zaman saya dulu popular dengan cinta monyet and biodata la. Haha! Tapi cinta monyet tue memang bengong la. Kalau ada yang serius memang serius sampai ke kahwin. Kalau yang setakat main-main tue entah ke mana la dorang tue berkapel di sekolah jak. Berdating di bawah blok kayu. Paling lucu la. Haha!! Lain dah cerita gue dong. Back to the story tadi, I know it was year 9 tapi I pretending that I don’t know. Haha! Kantoi nanti. Haha! Tapi saya takda la nak bagi harapan dengan dia. Same goes to other people coz I love to be alone and feel free. Nanti-nanti je la saya fikir and peningkan kepala hotak saya sal nak berkapel ni. Hehe.

K la. That’s all from me today. Have a nice day. Hope him or who else can find the best one. Haha! Ok bye! wink wink**

Hangout via Lumix cam!

Entry hari ni nak share some picture via Lumix Camera. Kualiti cam best juga tapi kalau nak edit picture susah pula nak serasikan environment effect. Ada yang terlampau terang. Ada yang ok juga la picture tue. Terpaksa pilih picture lain kalau tak sesuai.

Mula-mula tue rancang nak pergi swimming kat JPMC swimming pool at Jerudong. Tapi terpaksa batalkan niat nak g swimming sebab takde orang nak hantar. Huhu~ so sad! Takpa la. Lain kali je.

So our plan to go swimming terpaksa cancel and we just go hangout ke Mall Gadong. Yes, akhirnya dapat juga hangout pergi tengok wayang. Even kita orang tak jadi nak pergi swimming, at least dapat pergi jalan-jalan and tengok wayang.

* Ticket The Avengers *

Kita orang pergi tengok wayang Cineplex Mall. Paling best semuanya kena sponsor oleh my uncle. Haha! We go buy ticket dulu baru pergi jalan-jalan sebab The Avengers tue start pukul 2.30 petang. Each ticket cost $5 equal to RM10. We arrive at mall dalam pukul 2 so after buy ticket, we go jalan-jalan kejap pergi bookstore Best Eastern at Mall.

* My cuzzy ni sama macam saya Otaku *

After dah survey books, kita orang pergi beli popcorn and drink untuk tengok wayang la. And just waiting and waiting sampai movie start. Hehe.

* dalam lif going to 3rd floor *

* beratur beli popcorn and drinks *

* Movie lama Awakening *

* Picture with Men in Black *

 * dah kat dalam pun sempat take picture *

 * again. No taking picture actually. Lantak la! Haha *

Enjoy sangat-sangat. Haha! Before ni orang cakap The Avengers best sampai saya jeles sebab belum tengok. Now saya dah tengok. Nahhhh~~ Haha! Lucu juga cerita Avengers ni. Iron Man said "Don't say that have anyone kiss me" Haha! Boleh-boleh pula Iron man pengsan time tue. Ingat mati betul-betul sampai touching and sedih ni. Rupa-rupanya penipu. Hampeh! Haha! Enjoy.

* dah habis watch movie. *

Macam biasa la. Tau kan di mana ni. Haha!

Lepas siap, kita orang pergi swensen's cafe restaurant place at 2nd floor at Mall Gadong untuk mengisi kekosongan perut. Chubby-chubby la macam ni. Haha!

* view from our sit *

* iced chocolate melt and orange juice *

 

* this is what i ordered *

* yummy *

Dah habis mamam kita orang pergi survey kasut. Tengok je. P cuci mata kejap. At Cartino Sonea. Mahal tu doe! Haha!!

Dah puas hati jalan-jalan. Apa lagi. Balik la. Sampai je kat rumah ada pula aunty dorang cuzzy dari Keningau, Sabah datang. By the way.. really enjoy. Puas hati juga la even tak dapat g swimming. Hehe. Ok la. That's all from me.

* cumel kan. "Louisa" *

wink wink**

cupcake!

First time saya makan cupcake dalam bungkusan. Haha! Biasanya cupcake dijual di bakery kan. Ni kali la paling best. Cupcake di import dari Filipino. Haha! Thanks to aunty Nelly(my cuzzy maid). Sodap juga rasanya but manis la perisa coklat. Yummy!! Cupcake Whatta Top's!

wink wink**

Papa Birthday plus Teachers Day

Dear my papa,

Your age added 1 year old again today. I wish you happy birthday. Stay healthy and may God bless you always. I love you so much my dear papa. Today is your 46th years old birthday. Sorry for not celebrating your birthday today papa sebab I am still at aunty house, mommy, sister and brother at Limbang. I just can send you some wishes from sms.

I want you to know that I'm proud to be your daughter, sebab papa dapat mendidik saya dari kecil sehingga dewasa. Mendidik kami, mengajar kami erti kehidupan yang serba kekurangan dan sederhana. Yes, sometimes saya mengeluh dengan kehidupan ini tapi akhirnya saya bersyukur dengan apa yang pernah saya miliki. Sorry saya tak pandai nak berkata-kata. But really I Love You Papa. Happy 46th years old birthday.

credit to "Angel Honey" for the picture.

At same date today is teacher's day.

Banyak ucapan Selamat hari guru disampaikan oleh rakan-rakan terutama di facebook masing-masing. Saya juga ingin mengambil kesempatan untuk mengucapkan Selamat Hari Guru kepada guru-guru yang telah banyak mendidik dan mencurahkan ilmu kepada diri saya especially to my used to be teacher from Chung Hwa Brunei Kindergarten (2 years), Chung Hwa Middle School Brunei (2 years), Sek. Rendah Kebangsaan St. Edmund Limbang (4 years), Sek. Menengah Kebangsaan Limbang (5 years), Sek. Menengah Kebangsaan Kubong Limbang (2 weeks), to my instructor at Institut Latihan Perindustrian Miri (6 months practical) and lastly to my lecturer at Politeknik Mukah Sarawak (2 and 1/2 years).

I want to say thanks so much to all my teachers. Without teaches from all of you, I won't success and holding my Diploma in my hand today. I also want to say sorry for every mistake that I've make before. May God bless you all always teacher.

Really just wanna say thank you to all teachers that already taught me during my kindergarten, primary school, high-school, and college. I really appreciate what you had done for me, always accepting me even though I always sleep in the class during Sejarah and Physics class and also goes to Pendidikan Moral class. Tak dengar apa cikgu bercakap di depan pun. Hehe. Tempat duduk paling belakang and I always talking to my friend and make gossips! Haha! But one thing remained that I studied and I can maintained good grades for my SPM. Thank God that I've passed my school days and I am grateful that the teachers always accepting me eventhough i brought trouble to them. For that, I want to thank you for your sacrifices and love.

And not to forget the lecturers that guided me during the time i was studying as IT programmer students and my current lecturers in PMU. I really grateful to have you all to guide me through my programming studies. Thank you so much.

a special thanks goes to my parents cause they are my 1st teachers before i entered kindergarten. Love them so much. If may be without them, I am not places at where I am now. Thanks to you God because giving me the chance to meet all of them...

That's all for today. Happy Birthday to my Papa and Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers in this world. Love you all. wink wink**

Skip Beat a.k.a Extravagant

Entry hari ni nak share sal drama sad comedy ni. I really enjoy this drama. Best. Adaptasi dari manga skip beat. I really fall in love with this drama. Ada perasaan sweet, anger, geram, romantik, funny and so on. Haha! Only take 4 days to finish this drama. Yang best bila watak dua jejaka ini dari group Super Junior-M. Hurmm! Tak sangka dorang pandai cakap cina. Haha! Awesome! Encem kan dorang ni. Watak perempuan ni pula comel sangat. By the way, download sendiri la kalau nak tengok. Kalau tak nak download you can watch online at http://www.dramastyle.com/drama/Skip-Beat-Taiwanese-Drama-2011/

Skip Beat! (Chinese: 華麗的挑戰) is a Taiwanese television drama based on the Japanese shōjo manga of the same name by Yoshiki Nakamura. Skip Beat! is a joint production between Taiwan and Japan.

Synopsis of Skip Beat!

High school graduate Gong Xi gives up her chances for university in order to support her childhood friend and romantic goal, Bu Po Shang, in his pop idol career. Upon arriving in Taipei Gong Xi starts working on multiple jobs in order to support Shang, whose popularity quickly rises, eventually becoming one of the top idols in Taiwan. One day, Gong Xi catches Shang flirting with his manager, and learns that he only used her so she can help him with his living expenses. Heart-broken and betrayed, Gong Xi vows to get revenge by becoming a bigger star. Gong Xi auditions for L.M.E., Taiwan's largest talent agency, and joins L.M.E.'s new-found department "Love Me" with Jiang Nanqin, also a new recruit. At L.M.E. famous actor Dun Helian, disgusted by Gong Xi's reasons for joining the show business, consistently finds ways to annoy and taunt her. As Gong Xi's acting career starts to take off, she begins to discover a new sense of identity and purpose, separate from her initial plans of revenge. Lian also eventually warms up to her, and although at first in denial, he finds himself falling more and more in love with her.

* Choi Siwon as Dun He Lian *

A famous young actor who takes his profession very seriously. One of Taiwan's biggest stars, he is under the same talent agency as Gong Xi. Although he maintains a perfect public image, he is disgusted by Gong Xi's reasons for joining the show business and frequently finds ways to annoy and taunt her. He soon realizes Gong Xi's talent in acting and begins to support her endeavors. He eventually develops romantic feelings for Gong Xi, but she is too concentrated on her motives to notice his pursuits.

* Ivy Chen Yi Han as GongXi *

Newcomer actor at LME

A bright and intelligent high school graduate who gives up her chances for university to support her childhood friend and love interest, Bu Po Shang, in his pop idol career. She later finds out that Shang only used her for his own selfish reasons and had no intentions to spend the rest of his life with her. Devastated and vengeful, Gong Xi vows that she will exact revenge. Shang tells her that the only way to do this is to join the entertainment industry and defeat him. After much begging and pleading, she is finally accepted into L.M.E., Taiwan's largest talent agency, and joins the company's new-found department, Love Me Section.

* Donghae as Bu Po Shang *

Guy who dumped GongXi. Haha!

Famous singer

Born Shang Jieyong (尚介勇), Bu Po Shang is Gong Xi's childhood friend and love interest. Although egotistical and arrogant, he is an extremely talented musician. Fully aware of Gong Xi's romantic feelings for him, he successfully convinces Gong Xi to travel with him to Taipei to support him financially while he focuses on developing his singing career. Ruthless and ambitious, Shang decides to abandon Gong Xi to get together with his manager, which leads to Gong Xi to join the entertainment industry for revenge. Upon seeing Gong Xi's transformation, Shang realizes that he had more feelings for her than he originally thought. He holds great animosity towards Dun Helian because of his popularity and his close relationship with Gong Xi.

* Bianca Bai Xin Hui as Jiang Nan Qin *

Friend to GongXi

A young rising star who attends the same auditions as Gong Xi. She is desperate for a successful acting career and initially despises Gong Xi for standing in her way. Similar to Gong Xi, she joins the "Love Me Section" department of L.M.E. to touch up on her acting ability. After working together in various projects, Gong Xi and Nanqin develop a deep friendship.

Some MV of Skip Beat! OST.

That's all from me today. wink wink**

Untuk Mencintaimu

Hola people! Just nak share lagu ni "untuk mencintaimu" by seventeen. Tadi i heard this song at konsert separuh akhir mania sang by Randy Pangalila. Oh cairnya melihat dia menyanyi. Haha! Gila! Terus saya cari lagu ni then update my blog. Love Randy Pangalila.♥♥♥ Layan je lagu ni ek.

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Apa yang harus aku lakukan
Untuk membuat kau mencintaiku
Segala upaya telah kulakukan untukmu
Apa yang harus aku tunjukkan
Untuk membuat kau menyayangiku
Inilah aku yang memilih kau untukku

Kerna aku mencintaimu
Dan hatiku hanya untukmu
Tak akan menyerah dan takkan berhenti mencintaimu
Ku berjuang dalam hidup untuk slalu memilikimu
Seumur hidupku setulus hatiku hanya untukmu
Wooo..kerna aku mencintaimu

Dan hatiku hanya untukmu
Tak akan menyerah dan takkan berhenti mencintaimu
Ku berjuang dalam hidupku untuk slalu memilikimu
Seumur hidupku setulus hatiku hanya untukmu
Seumur hidupku setulus hatiku uhhhh…

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mother day!

Today I wish happy mother day to my lovely mommy. Love you always and stay healthy. Mommy, without you, I'm nothing in this world. May God bless you always my mom. Sob sob sob~

My mom maybe not the most prettiest mom ever, but she the most responsibilities mom I ever had, she clean up everything everyday, get everything done so well, not every mom can go to work and can be a housewife in the same time, but I'm so proud of my mom that she can do both of it. About my dad, he never made a empty promise and he always make sure his 3 children get enough education so me and my sibling can make more money than he do.

Appreciate your mom and dad, dun waste too many time on other people because our parent grow older while we so busy enjoy outside world.

And to me, one day I will just like my mom and i will find a husband just like my dad.

Mom I just want to let u know that everyday I thank to God for blessing me with a mother like you.I wish I that everyone else would have a mom as wonderful as you are. You are not just my mom but one of my best friends and I love how you so much that you understand me and I can come to you for some advice. Thank you for always being here for me and I really appreciate all that you give to me. The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness. I LOVE YOU MOM!!

wink wink**